You've got the poison, I've got the remedy
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Hello.
I spent Christmas with Daniel again.!:) its like a routine, and sadly hes flying off, so i need to find another Christmas kaki again. i wasnt in the mood to go out that day. Things felt different between us, alot of things need to be cleared, and im waiting like a confused monkey now. anyway i finished the book i wanted to give her, felt so proud of myself. ha. Called daniel and he woke up at 3 or 4, went to his house with the book. we talked and we went to zouk to collect his membership card, and it was off to sentosa. she wasnt going, tried to make her to, but she din want to. oh well, things really seem wrong now. Like shes avoiding me. i reached sentosa at 8 and we ate pizza. Distasteful. ha. waste of money. and surprise came when she said she was coming down with B. was like???? went to find a hotel but couldnt cus of christmas season, went back to find her and b sitting down, listening to music. We din talk, sensed something really wrong then. So awkward, like she was afraid of me. i don't know. I waited for anyone to approach me, but they din came. And they suddenly said they wanted to leave. Couldnt apprehend the meaning. They came and left without saying a word to me.? Daniel sent them to the mrt, and before she left, i gave her the book. cus we felt that no point keeping it, she came probably because of this book. i dunno. waited for her sms, a thank you. a touched sms, a happy one, a sad one, it din came. after that we went to changi airport to walk around. sounds boring and crazy but it felt good, just to walk up the near empty hallways in peace and talk about everything. I felt calm i felt peace, i felt sad. whatever that could have been ended up like this. I din noe who to blame or what to blame. I tried looking and searching for answers. and i ended up in more confusion. Daniel told me not to expect anything. i nodded, but my heart didn't. Till now, its noon, and not a sms. Im waiting for the day everything can clear up once and for all, and i want it face to face.
It all comes back to the same story. Just one word and i will wait, i dun mind, i seriously dun mind. just please dun push me away and leave me there to pick up the pieces.
I was hopeful cus you were different, i knew you were sure of what you were doing. but all this thats happening now show otherwise. If you hope things will silence if you let it be, i don't know what to say, just that im very dissapointed not in your decision, but your actions. So please, lets talk? :)
You've got the poison,
I've got the remedy.
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